(Saturday)
The burning morning sun oozes out fiery oranges and yellows as it peaks its head around an aged, faded brick will in this sleepy Northwest New Mexican town that quietly, but assuredly becomes my home. To the left, historic Coal Street emanates the quaint, small town charm of Gallup in each shop window. Stuck in time, this downtown area and the city itself draw visitors from across the world, who long for the city’s scenic beauty but also, I think, a life more simple, perhaps more innocent then their own. To my right, the McKinley County Courthouse adds a hint of modernity to an otherwise old-fashioned city center. In the evenings, Native American tribes from around the area descend upon the performance circle in front of the building and delight admiring onlookers with traditional dances and musical performances.
The juxtaposition of old Coal Street and the more grandiose, new-age courthouse provides an appropriate portrayal of life throughout New Mexico and many parts of the Southwest as regions creep reluctantly, yet desirously into the future, while striving to maintain a beautiful attachment to the past. Stepping into this push-pull provides newcomers with a fascinating invitation to a persistent cultural seesaw, a wrestling match of old and new that makes one question what one has to hold on to in her or his own life in terms of culture. It also makes one happy to be in a place that does have such a strong sense of the place from which it comes, even if it is not exactly certain of the place to which it hopes to go.
Yes, this Saturday morning, up with the sun, I reflect upon the many entreaties that make life and the world at once bastions of change and repetition. People grow, areas change, but similar, oft-tragic challenges continually face humanity and persist, all too often, unaddressed. Technological innovation surges forward without restrain, yet the world’s knowledge of, and commitment to making similar advances in enhancing equity does not follow suit. Areas such as Gallup, reach out for the niceties of a modern world but long to preserve a historic way of life. Others, ravaged by the effects of devastating poverty, do not have such a convenient position. For many places, the need for food, medicine, and survival make the choice between modern and historic less than meaningful.
Week two of teaching provided similar exhilaration to week one, but I feel it necessary to add another word to the adjective tree used to describe the job: real. This profession puts people directly into the lives of young people who have, ever since entering the classroom, faced substantial obstacles in advancing themselves academically. In fact, their families have faced similar obstacles for generations. The continual system of inequality that I have observed in this regard here in Gallup represents, I think, something of a modicum of similar injustices taking place across the world. I dare say that more people experience them than do not- in this sense, working to combat it is real indeed.
(Sunday)
Morning came early again today, Sunday. I watched the sun creep slowly over the horizon from the top of Pyramid Rock. The early morning dark turned to light, and I watched the earth come to life before me. Scenes like this characterize the Northwest corner of New Mexico, in lands cherished by inhabitants for millennia. Do I know how to properly value what I have seen or the deep, rich tradition of thanking and using the land that came before me? This is an important question, and the answer at present is probably no. For now, however, I am overjoyed, and strangely content, to have the opportunity to take part in sharing in the land’s beauty.
The morning cool and quiet of the landscape reminded me of previous mornings spent while on trips in Peru and Nicaragua. Thoughts crept into my mind this morning of the former, wherein an 8-point earthquake earlier this week wrought havoc on the land and lives of persons across the country, particularly the rural south. I thought as well of communities wherein land provides life. By life, I mean more than sustenance or things dealing with nutritional intake. I mean land providing a way of looking at the world, a way of existence, survival. In the Andean region, for example, papas, or potatoes represent more than just a staple. The land preparation and utilization entailed in growing and harvesting this beloved crop represents far more than habitual agricultural practice; it represents a way of life. For thousands of years, inhabitants have given thanks to, and performed ritualistic ceremonies for the cherished root. Indeed, the potatoes history in the Andean Region offers an endearing example of how, in places across the world, people and land often become one.
I thought, also, of my host family in Nicaragua, the Vidals, whose recent experience with a serious illness in the family, of which I knew little until very recently, ushered in a sense of melancholy and longing into my otherwise optimally content mind as I ascended Pyramid in the lightning morning expanse. When can and will I go back? I want to be with these people I love, show them how much I care for them, and thank them for all of the perspective and strength time spent with them now provides in my own life. There is no way to know, for sure, when I will return. For now, I suppose, I will just send my thanks and sincere recompense through the airways in hopes that the quiet, invisible connectivity binding every human being picks it up and plants it firmly in the minds of each member of the Vidal family.
Rudolfo Anaya is the literary pride and joy of New Mexico. His classic text, Bless Me, Ultima captures the intense battle currently waged between modernity and traditionalism in this, the country’s 5th biggest, state. We look around, searching for things of value. We want these things to fill our hearts, provide us joy. Often, it is hard to see that in many ways satisfaction is a choice. Learning to love and value those things already in our lives can prove difficult. However, as I looked around me, perched happily atop Pyramid Rock, watching the rising sun emanate brilliant oranges, reds, pinks, and violets, life’s challenge of finding happiness in the natural could not have been simpler.